Lifesong: One Voice

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

One Voice

I wouldn't be truthful to say it's not a struggle. I have many 'voices' vying for my attention. It would be easy to let those outside 'voices' crowd in and distract. 'They' come in many forms and ways. Some of them speak fear. Some speak discouragement. Some speak defeat. Some speak not much hope. One Voice spoke my name last Friday with the Bible study. It takes an act of the will and spirit to dismiss the other 'voices'. Those other 'voices' would love to take me captive--
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
The voice of truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth (Casting Crowns)

I don't understand...but I believe. God knows I believe. He also knows I struggle...and He does understand!

(I had my stitches removed today and the doctor said I'm healing nicely. I'll see my radiation oncologist again on Friday to get my treatment mapped out. I will begin treatments next week. I will soon see the medical oncologist about the other IV treatment that I'm supposed to get once a month. It looks like my trip to Colorado may be iffy since my radiation treatments will be 5 days a week for 5 weeks. The nurse said to keep my plans as scheduled for now, though. We'll see.)

No comments:

Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom)

My history of cancer

*SCC recurrence of tumor on right base of tongue 12/11 and probable tumor on voice box. Declined very intrusive surgery and treatments. Choosing pain management through hospice.
*SCC tumor successfully removed robotically in Birmingham from right base of tongue 5/11, quick tests done during surgery showed clean margins. Dissection of tumor after surgery showed cancers cells along bottom of tumor. Surgeon robotically removed another layer of entire area on 7/1/11, pathology report showed biopsies had clean margins with no signs of cancer remaining.
*SCC spread to far back of tongue on right side, surgery to remove what was thought to be scar tissue 3/11, pathology report confirmed SCC, further consults and tests at MD Anderson Houston to determine a plan. PET & CT scans confirm tumor on base of tongue. Doctors at MDA agree chemotherapy not effective at this point, radiation no longer an option, advised to see surgeon in B'ham for robotic surgery.
*SCC spread to neck muscle through blood stream, removed tumor 4/10, involved removing some of the muscle, 11 lymph nodes removed-all clear, will continue monthly Erbitux treatments, repeat MRI 6/10 to check BB size spot on the right side
*SCC spread to inside of right cheek, 2/09 surgery removed area with wide clean margins, replace with skin flap, veins and arteries taken from inside left forearm, attached to blood flow with veins & arteries to left side of neck with 2 negative nodes removed, monthly Erbitux treatments continued
*SCC spread to neck muscle under tip of left clavicle, 8/08 surgery, radiation and continued monthly Erbitux
*SCC spread to neck and gum area, 12/07 surgery to remove 2 lumps in neck, one classified as a dead cancer, gum area-superficial, clean margins, 8 wks Erbitux, then long range monthly Erbitux treatments
*SCC spread through blood stream to knot in neck muscle, 5/07 surgery to remove knot involved removing muscle as well, no lymph nodes tested positive, 6 wks radiation & 8 wks Erbitux
*SCC spread to gum area, 12/06 surgery removing gum area & 2 more bottom molars, superficial and clean margins, no treatments
*SCC spread to lump in neck, 7/05 surgery, one lymph node tested positive, 6 wks radiation treatments to mouth and neck
*SCC spread to gum area, 1/05 surgery removing gum & 2 bottom molars, clean margins, no treatments
*Tongue cancer-Squamous Cell Carcinoma, 4/04 surgery, clean margins, no lymph nodes tested positive, no treatments
*Breast cancer, 11/2000 lumpectomy, clean margins, no lymph nodes tested positive, 6 wks radiation treatments